I've been feeling kinda lost in my emotions lately... I was going through my CD's today and listened to Televison by Stabbing Westward, and it kinda reflects how ive been feeling...

TELEVISION

I sit alone contemplating
What is missing inside me
I desperately try to remember
A life that's not meant to be

I meditate
And try to recapture
Some sense of reality
In my life

But I look around
I see numb empty faces
The world is waiting to die

And this apathy
Is so suffocating
The slow decay of my mind
I've searched the world
For someone with answers
To questions that are plaguing me

I scream in vain
To anyone who'll listen
But everbody's watchin' TV

Is anyone alive?

Am I lost in a world
Where nothing matters?

Am I lost in a world
Where no one cares?

Is anyone alive? (x2)
Are we lost in a world
Where nothing matters?

Are we lost in a world
Where no one cares?

Is anyone alive? (x2)

i've noticed i haven't posted anything in a long time. so i'm posting now... i have a few new things i have yet to submit nothing all to great... just a few songs/poems i wrote tonight. i've been drawing to but yet again no scanner so i have to wait a week or so to use one. just letting you all know that im not dead. lol.

well today i actually feel alot better! (which is suprising since i got no sleep last night) I think i actually might be over my sickness...hopefully... this whole week i have done nothing! theres nothing to do!!! and your kinda restricted when your only 16...not being able to drive or have a car sucks!!! there's so much i could have done but didn't because i couldn't get there. Sooo i just sat on my lazy butt all week been on the comp. doing pointless things hell i even got so bored that i cleaned my jewelry last night! thats how bored i am...but on the plus side all my jewelry is shinny!!! ^_^ teehee. nope i still haven't gotten the scanner working yet and its bugging me!!! grrr >.<

bleh...i feel crappy...I'm sick...and icky... Pooh! *twitch twitch* so i haven't done anything... i have a test tomorrow then the rest of the week off which is a good thing...I think..*itches head* which meens no school=sleep! ^_^ which makes me all fuzzy inside! teehee. Wow being sick is boring today i got so bored i actually enjoyed cleaning the house!!! (something is really wrong with me!)o.0 i re-organized my room i have 2 beds in my room one from when bonnie (my brothers fiance) was staying with us and one that is mine soo i took both of them then i put them togeather and it makes it bigger than a king size!!!o.0 tis amazing!!! then i went out side and broke into the shop because my dad has the keys to grab my old scanner (that i never used) to put on this comp so i could scan my pictures and drawings but i called up my dad to see if he could help and he said it is a really crappy scanner and to just use the old one and the old one has a crack in the glass and i can't find the software for it and he said he would help me when i'm not so contagious...soo it might be a few days... *sniffle* but i did manage to install my camera and microsoft office and now i still have to figure out whats up with my printer cuz for some odd reason its not detecting the usb cable even though its there and every things on like its supposed to...grr why are computers so complicated?! oh well it gives me something to do this week. oh and i've been working on my website and its coming out pretty well but it's not finished yet i wanna put pictures on there but i can't right away cuz of the whole scanner thingy thing... my brain itches...i think im gonna go sleep or try to amuse myself in some way...

still bored not alot has happened in the past few days... i hung out with a few good friends of mine the other day and that was fun!!! but thats about it, god we have to do that more often!!! But next time we need jello! o.0 tee-hee wow has anyone ever noticed all the odd flavors of jello they make now i meen strawberry banana, peach, black cherry, blueberry, lemon, apricot, kiwi!! What has this world come to?!!!(besides more was for me and lau to create odd combinations) muahahah! ^_^ k thats all i wantted to say i suppose...BUNNY! *giggles*